“SEMPER FIDELIS”
This story doesn’t represent me as a person, but it shows my view to the world. The saying “always faithful” means that you have to stay loyal to somebody or something, so I decided to be loyal to myself.
When I was a kid, I always used to be a good girl, I always had many ideas about changing my life, being different, but I was afraid. I was afraid of my strict parents, I didn’t want to disappiont them, afraid of others’ opinion about me, because I wanted to be perfect. However, being perfect was difficult for me, I was always trying to be nice and was smiling to everyone around me, but instead of making new friends I received the nickname “Beaver” because of my big teeth and smile. Although I had friends that were supportive, I wasn’t happy about my life, so I have started to change it. I didn’t want to be a bird in a cage.
My changes started with my appearance. I wore braces and I no longer had a “Beaver” smile. When I was 16 I got my first tattoo, and now I have 5 tattoos, I cut my long blonde hair and was trying just to be myself. I understood that I didn’t have to try to be perfect, I just had to be myself. My situation improved. Instead of being bullied as I used to be, I became beloved school girl andeverything changed because of understanding that I have to live the way I like, not the way others expect me to live.
I changed my opinion about religion. When I was a kid, I used to believe that we do not have to find the answer about our planet, the way it was created, about first people on our land and even about death. I was christian girl, so the answer was always “God has made it”. I was afraid of the saying “God will punish you because of your behaviour”, However, I was so curious that I started to search about my religion and I understood that hell, heaven, and death have another explanation. I found the answer - REINCARNATION. It is the process of becoming an another creature after death. Of course, it is important to live with integrity and be afraid of karma, but it will not impact go to hell or heaven.
I started to make decisions that are not always right. I am not afraid to make them, because I am always learning from my mistakes. I do not need to have an advisor, who always judges me and every step I make.
I am not the same girl that I used to be, even though I look really shy and quiet, I am stronger. I do not want to be perfect for others, I just want to be faithfull to myself, to put aside all differences and stereotypes.
This I believe.
When I was a kid, I always used to be a good girl, I always had many ideas about changing my life, being different, but I was afraid. I was afraid of my strict parents, I didn’t want to disappiont them, afraid of others’ opinion about me, because I wanted to be perfect. However, being perfect was difficult for me, I was always trying to be nice and was smiling to everyone around me, but instead of making new friends I received the nickname “Beaver” because of my big teeth and smile. Although I had friends that were supportive, I wasn’t happy about my life, so I have started to change it. I didn’t want to be a bird in a cage.
My changes started with my appearance. I wore braces and I no longer had a “Beaver” smile. When I was 16 I got my first tattoo, and now I have 5 tattoos, I cut my long blonde hair and was trying just to be myself. I understood that I didn’t have to try to be perfect, I just had to be myself. My situation improved. Instead of being bullied as I used to be, I became beloved school girl andeverything changed because of understanding that I have to live the way I like, not the way others expect me to live.
I changed my opinion about religion. When I was a kid, I used to believe that we do not have to find the answer about our planet, the way it was created, about first people on our land and even about death. I was christian girl, so the answer was always “God has made it”. I was afraid of the saying “God will punish you because of your behaviour”, However, I was so curious that I started to search about my religion and I understood that hell, heaven, and death have another explanation. I found the answer - REINCARNATION. It is the process of becoming an another creature after death. Of course, it is important to live with integrity and be afraid of karma, but it will not impact go to hell or heaven.
I started to make decisions that are not always right. I am not afraid to make them, because I am always learning from my mistakes. I do not need to have an advisor, who always judges me and every step I make.
I am not the same girl that I used to be, even though I look really shy and quiet, I am stronger. I do not want to be perfect for others, I just want to be faithfull to myself, to put aside all differences and stereotypes.
This I believe.